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[14 Jun 2009|09:37pm]
 They carved your name into a stone
And they put it in the ground.
I run my fingers through the grooves
When no ones around.

 I drink 'til I'm sick,
And I talk to myself
In the dog days of the summer.
Then I feel you coming
but I don't know how

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[14 Jun 2009|09:09pm]
 So.................today me and my mom worked in the yard, making a new little patio thing (like we needed another place to sit down outside).  I've been riding my motorcycle alot lately when I'm not at work. Nothing much else to do I guess, but that's cool.  I've really got to find a fucking career. I'm tired of working my ass off every week and still being broke and living  with my parents. I feel like a fucking piece of shit. I literaly have two fucking friends that I get to hangout with sometimes. I miss Lee like fucking crazy man.  Andrew can go fuck himself. I think it's pretty fucking lame to douche out on your friends until you need something.  People like that should tie a weight around their waste and jump off a fucking bridge. I swear to God! You hang out with them for so long, and then they don't give you the time of fucking day for months on end. I don't need friends like that. Busy or not, would a fucking phone call every now and again kill them? FFUUCCKKK!!!!!! I feel like I have a pretzel in my head. I'm on the road to a mental breakdown.

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[29 May 2009|11:32pm]
I have just now realized how much James Taylor kicks ass.

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[24 Apr 2009|01:04am]
 So, I have cut back smoking alot. I've went from a pack a day to about 10 cigs. I've decided to do some things that I need to do to better myself.  I've really been in a horable mental state lately, but it seems as though maybe i'm getting better at controling that. It's wierd to think about the future and if  you or anyone you know will even be in that future. That really fucks with your head. I mean, the things you have and the people you have around you aren't at all permanant or forever.  I guess this is just some more random thoughts placed randomly on a page.

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[29 Mar 2009|08:57pm]
[ mood | but happy, unlike that guy> ]

 Welp...........I'm in a pretty good mood today. Probably because I had today off and have tomoeeow of too. So........that's preety much it. Oh, I bought some neew mirrors for my motorcycle.(isn't it wierd how that's amazing enough to me to actually put that on here). I am curently bored out of my mind, but whatever, at least i don't have to work tomorrow. See ya.

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[08 Mar 2009|12:57am]
 I have just realized that my picture on here really looks nothing like me anymore. That thing is like.................5 years old???!!??? Holy fuck balls!!! I remember that day as though it were yesterday. Good times man. Well........ Nothing exciting to report. Just glad it's been warm outside for the past day or two. Neways, off to bed. Maybe I won't dream I'm a drug addict cabinet maker again. 

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[06 Feb 2009|07:13pm]
 Well, I bought another motorcycle. This one I can actually fit on. It's loud and awesome and gets 3 times more miles per gallon than my blazer! I'm stoked! 

 Other than that, nothing really exciting. hope everyone has a goodnight.

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[28 Jan 2009|11:47pm]
[ mood | tired ]

 Gary Chestnut is a fucking fag Myspace! wHY DO YOU THINK i WANT TO ADD HIM!!!???????!!!!!!!!! Welp, last weekend was fucking rad! The rays won and got to hang out with Dave Steph and Amber. We just chilled on my porch until like 1:30 in the morning. Brings back so memories of the old timey days. I'm tired.

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[22 Jan 2009|12:24am]
[ mood | bored ]

 Soooooo....... Nothing that great or spectacular happening. I cant believe it's already almost february!  I'm bored as shit right now. I miss the old days where one phone call could bring on a night of just hanging out. But I guess these times, they are a changin'. 

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[08 Nov 2008|07:36pm]
I can't believe we have a nigger for president!!!!!!  Davey.......where ever you may be...............................we have failed at some point!!!!!

   Welp, that's all for now. Got to get back to paint slaves.

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[29 Jun 2008|08:27pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

   I hate Bonifay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm tired of being bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a GOD DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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[05 May 2008|03:37pm]
[ mood | nerdy ]

  You know what!!!! I'm in a great mood! Nothing cool has happened to put me in a good mood though. Everythings pretty much the same. I have lost 12 pounds in the last 3 months. I feel good. I would like to see my friends....ummm....what are their names?  I think their names  are Tracie and bethanie, or something like that. It's been so long. Neway, I just feel good and hope everyone who reads this thing is having a good one.

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[02 Apr 2008|07:04pm]
[ mood | ditzy ]

  So....... Does anyone want to start a band? Has anyone played a WII yet? Listened to any good music lately? Have you seen a dead body in the last 15 min.? Did you yourself make that dead body?   Come on people, I've started a topic. Now, all you have to do is pick one. Talk to me please! God damn it!  


   An exremely Fat lady came in the store today and was like, "I need some good running shoes".  I just stood there because she threw me off gaurd. She probably hates me right now. On second thought, naw, she's probably eating a family sonic the hedgehog's.





   -Ben

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[10 Feb 2008|01:55am]
[ mood | stressed ]

  I'm afraid that I'm getting used to life. I don't think that is such a good thing. You're supossed to meet with new chalenges everyday. Nothing EVER happens to me! I swear to fucking God man! My life is boring and for some reason I am to. I don't feel like Ben anymore. I'm afraid that the more time goes by, the less chance i have to better myself and situation. And I know that my parents sure as hell aren't going to help out with school or training or anything like that. I just think it's funny how they can afford sending my meth-head step brother to school but they can't help someone who hasn't shamed the family. I mean, I know what I want to do. Thats a given. It's not like It's a waiste of money. It's something I want to do. It's something I need to do. I want to be proud of what I do for a living. I don't want to tell people that I work a minimum waige job with really shitty hours, and oh yeah, I live with my parents. Not that I'm too good for that job, but I just want to be able be happy with a career.

 

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[14 Jan 2008|04:23pm]
 


  Haha! Just thought this was a funny picture.


  
   (I know everything I'm posting is a little random, but fuck you, I'm bored.)

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[14 Jan 2008|04:17pm]
  Is the game Uno bad for your well-being? I beleve it is.  I bought an Xbox 360 and it has that on there.  And no matter how much i play it, I can't seem to win. So I deleted it. plain and simple. I don't need to take shit from a fucking devil box neway!

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[13 Jan 2008|12:32am]
  Me flying an airplane;
 
   I look down out of the airplane window as a fly over a small town. " I wonder what the people in that town are doing ", I say silently to myself. As I zone out and ponder the question, I come quickly come to, saying out loud, " Fuck them dude! Pay attention! You're flying a fucking airplane!!!!"

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[07 Nov 2007|10:10pm]
  Well, Let's see..........All last weekend and all of this week I have been sick. So, today I went to the doctor. He said that I have a Duodenum Ulcer (an ulcer on my Duodenum ,obviously). Plus, when I got there, they check my blood pressure and found that it was extremely high. Sooo, not only do I have to take Nexium for my DU, my Doctor put me on BLOOD PRESSURE MEDICATION!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! What The Fuck?!?!  I'm not a 50 year old!  God Damn it! But it does make you feel as though you have smoked some weak ass weed. So thats pretty cool.

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[30 Sep 2007|12:15am]
   lol!!!!!!!!!!! Check this shit out! It is fucking awesome. You put a word in and it puts that word into a movie quote! Use the word nigger and see some funny shit!


http://thesurrealist.co.uk/movie.php?word

 here are some that I did........................

  

This dildo attracts Those We Do Not Speak Of. You must bury it.


Ray, if someone asks if you are a nigga, you say, 'yes!'

Nigga? We ain't got no nigga! We don't need no nigga! I don't have to show you any stinking nigga!

I could dance with you 'til the nigga come home. On second thought, I'd rather dance with the nigga 'til you came home.

The pellet with the poison's in the vessel with the nigger.

   This shit is hilarious!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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[24 Sep 2007|06:19pm]
  

Well I cooked Chicken Parmasiano tonight. I haven't made it in a while so I figured...Why not? It was pretty damn good.  
  
  I came to the conclusion that I REALLY need to watch what I eat. Not a diet or anything, just start cutting out all of the so-called Comfort foods and fucking chocolate shit. I didn't decide to strictly because of my weight, but more so for my health and well being.  I guess I just looked at the members of my family that have died from Heart attacks and things of that nature and realized that I want to live just as long as I can and anything I can do to help me reach that goal I would do it. 

  I may not know exactly what I want to do or be when I "grow up", but I have some ideas. I feel that those things do NOT need to be rushed. One hastily decision and poof, I'm doing something that I will have to "settle" with. And I don't want that to happen. The way I see it, I have a good bit of time to decide. You shouldn't have to be content with your life or be just "ok" with your job. It should be something that when someone asks you "Hey, what do you do?" you can literally Scream it from a mountain top and people can see that It was what you WANTED to do. Not something you just settled for.



   -Ben

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